Immaturity.
I lost it. Totally lost it. Just that simple and quick. Very easily done.
I broke my resolutions from the January 1st, 2008.
I so much wanted to keep calm. But, hey, my attitude is that. You treat me well, I treat you well too. Similarly, you treat me like shit, you burn in hell.
I hate people that criticize me and comment that I am childish when they are oh-so-mature. When using my face to show my expression is childish, putting-stone-in-others'-bags and changing-the-ringstyle-of-others'-handphones-when-they-are-unaware-and-call-them-in-class is supposed to be mature. When you comment, do see whether you are suitable to speak. Are you talking about yourself, or are you trying to put people down? Are you commenting because you want the person to improve, or are you commenting because you like to criticize?
Do you talk to others because you think you are suitable to talk to them only and not the rest, or because you think the rest are too immature for you to mix with? Do you talk to others because you just want to know something and not talk to them because you took their advantage and they are of no use to you, so there is no point in entertaining them?
Do you criticize others ungentlemanly, when you yourself are ill-mannered and not playing fair?
Do you know that you are cocky and proud?
Sometimes, it is these things that put people off, that make people not want to befriend you. I am not pinpointing this on anyone, but experiencing others' attitudes make me want to address this issue. Do think twice before you comment.
I have learnt to assess. Is it true? Is it necessary? Is it polite? Answering these three questions with 'yes'es gives you the passport to speak the comment.
Meanwhile, I will try to keep my cool and practise Zen, while others challenge my limits.
