When No One Understands.
This is not fucking life. Fuck you to the next person that comes to me and tell me "That's life." or "Just chill and relax." Because both remarks do not make any sense at all. First remark, it is people whose actions affect others and consciously or not, these actions are capable of making others feel miserable. So its not life but others fucking you up. Second remark, you will never be able to chill and relax when you are fucking tense and pissed off over things. These comments just make it worse. Like you can't do something and its making you unhappy and someone just do it in front of you because he just want to piss you off. That's the feeling. Its like telling you that hey you over there, control your emotions, when he is very sure you tried and you still can't. You do not advise someone on things to do when that person very well know what he have to do and he can't do it. It doesn't make you any superior telling people what to do.
Work sucks. I looked at the forecast of duty and my name is not in the list and fuck to the officer that wrote in his email, I follow the forecasted name list and appointed those forecasted to be the station i/c. Fuck. You. My name was not even there and hello, the person whose name was officially in the list did not even appear. Excuse: I didn't know. And guess what? No punishment for not being present in camp the whole day. Spectacular. And me, the person who is not due to help out in ippt had to be in charge of the 2.4km station and the sit up station. I have to run between two stations. And I have to cover his jobscope.
Second, the whole alpha just disappeared today, leaving yishun at 12. And they made me go back to camp alone. One person representing the whole of alpha. And the reason they gave that at least one person must return to camp was that victor, the alpha assistant company trainer, or just the alpha warrant officer, wants to criticise the bravo warrant officer and so must have someone there to prevent alpha being commented upon and instead, be able to comment on others. Then for goodness sake, you want to do the criticism, you do the job well yourself and then earn the reason for yourself to do what you want to do. And the fucking bravo warrant officer called my dxo to get me to go back to the training shed because he think I ran off. Balls to you. Your third sergeant didn't even turn up for work the whole day.
I am just sick of tired of these nonsense. Its like all the regulars just play their politics and me just standing in near proximity get caught in this tornado. And among the alpha trainers, I am the only nsf.
